i've just remembered how nice my blog actually looks on windows. trust me, when you look on safari, you don't see anything and for awhile there i thought that my blog probably looked like the worse thing ever.

so, the first week of school has started. rejuvenating new experience and making new friends is always tough. granted, there's always pros and cons but generally although i do enjoy the life, i feel as though i'm not top of my game...which i usually am.

i used to be able to funtion so well, it becomes natural. now it seems everything has taken a new step back and i guess in a way you realize how protected and how covered you've been. i was like a big fish in a small pond and as you step out of the small pond, you realize that the world ahead of you is so large and not everything is at the bottom of your feet.

i'm so glad i build a foundation of friend(s). because i realize they're the ones i always turn back to especially my beloved for she knows who she is. it's a pretty tough world out there, and well i guess it gets tougher from here. things hurt occasionally and i try to repress it but sometimes it becomes a grudge and you feel like exploding.

i'm sure we've all been there sometimes. even now, you're probably experiencing it which bascially sucks.

and my memory has gone down the drain and in a way i was not as confident as i was before where i was the top of my game.

i guess its training day all over again.

for those who help me cope, i'm taking this opportunity to thank you.